I remember being very excited when I first signed up to start my free blog. My fingers trembled with electricity as I wrote some short but sweet sentiment about my life and how thankful I was for the people in it. I posted it with pride and set up the link from my Facebook page. Yep - I was on my way to becoming the next great thing in blogging. After I hit a thousand followers I was going to put up my own website and sell ad space, then it would only be a matter of time before the likes of Harper and Bantam were flooding me with offers for my first novel. I was absolutely sure of it!
Fast forward 10 months and 18 days - I have now logged into my blog for the second time (total). Note to self - don't count your blogs before they are written.
My whole life has been much like this blog - started with gusto but easily forgotten as I tend to the more mundane aspects of my life: work, kids, bills, school programs, meetings endless children's sporting events, my lovable but child like husband and on and on. A good analogy would be starting an exercise program. The first day I'm motivated and sure of the goal. I clean out my cupboards and ignore the groans from my children and hubby as I unpack supplies of protein powder, veggies and true whole wheat starches from the grocery bags. I suddenly start using my gym membership not just once every two months, but every day and I feel good! But then somewhere around week 2.5 something happens in my brain and it all goes terribly wrong. I wake up late and find myself skipping the morning visit to the gym and opting to sit around and eat pop tarts for breakfast with my coffee while watching Dance Moms on my DVR. I think, "It's ok. I deserve a break. I'll get right back to it tomorrow." Three days later, the motivation and drive has vanished and all I'm left with is pop tart crumbs in the bed (maple and brown sugar - yummmy), an ass that hasn't shrank a bit and Abby Lee screaming at those poor girls on TV.
So for this blog I am setting one goal - I will write for a half hour every day. I may not publish all the blogs, but I will write something. It's a great outlet for me and might give me a window into my lack of follow through and self perceived laziness, or at least that's the goal. If I can follow through on one thing than maybe, just maybe I can work up the courage to something more astounding, like actually using my gym membership card for more than scraping tape off of the sliding glass door. Wish me luck!
